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I wish that I knew what comes over a Christian like myself, every now and then that makes me want to place a head lock or a full Nelson on somebody who has done me wrong. I mean, at age sixty two and a half, one would think that I would have mastered these "urges to kill" at some former part of my life and would now be wandering happily along in the world of sixty-ish females, concerned with needlepoint and a cat collection, but no! I seem to be in some kind of limbo between twenty-something and infinity, and just when I think I have it under control, God reminds me that I am human!
Oh Darn it! There's that "H" word again. The one that grounds us Christians and reminds us that we are not angels or super folks but just plain people, trying to walk the right road, but sometimes, we take a u-turn and have the nerve to be amazed at our actions.
In the past week, I have had to deal with a couple of difficult and probably ongoing situations.
I navigated in and out of them, chewed on them, presented them to others who chewed on them with me ( makes it more edible when others chew on it too, like softening leather or something) and we all came to the conclusion that my hand is temporarily in the mouth of the proverbial lion and to snatch it out at this point, might mean losing a couple of fingers, or worse yet, the entire hand, elbow and forearm. Well, OUCH!
I am finding also that life is an eternal learning experience and you just never get away from the student's desk. No matter how big we grow, the desk ( sometimes) gets bigger, but the teachers remain the same. Some of the teachers are slow and easy, while others are task masters and mistresses from hell, and they are bent on teaching you the harder lessons. When you do not "get it" they hit you upside the head with a ruler, and if you still do not get it, they add tacks, nails, and other flailing materials to the ruler, until you are bloody and on the floor. Then they stand over you with a bucket of water in order that you are revived and begin to prepare you for the next lesson.
Sounds harsh, but there are no separate rules for older folks. I was silly enough to believe that life got easier so that we could skip into our twilight years with not a care in the world, having learned all that we could learn in those other, supposedly easier and younger years.
When I look back, those years have all been played out from the student's point of view. Sometimes I got to be the teacher, but most often, I have spent the time in learning, and none of the lessons were bad. Some harder than others, but all valuable.
I am thankful that my Christianity does not get in the way of my human self. From time to time, I lead myself to believe that living for Christ will exempt me from pain and toils, but a quick look at the scriptures reminds me that Jesus Himself was not spared the torture of the world's nasty attitudes and slick little plots.
From his earliest life, someone was always after Him and He had to deal with the Herod's and the Pharisees and the folks who were simply "out to get him".
So, back to my desk I go, thankful and prayerful, as I await the next in a long line of lessons!
"Lessons bitter learned, are sweet to know"
-anonymous
2 comments:
Boy, Sister, don't I know what you are talking about. I have had a problem with medical billing offices, and yesterday I had just had it....I spent two hours working on bills, calling Medicare etc. Seems like nobody can get things done right, and it is hard to be charitable, when you know what needs to be done, tell them how to bill your stuff correctly, and they refuse, and do it their way, which delays payment from insurance companies, and then they send you a bill for the full amount. Then I write them and give them insurance information again, and they still don't do it right. I guess that this is a test for me from God not to lose my cool!! "OK Lord, I hear you." So, today I was going to get back at it this morning, but figured I needed to do some work on my blog on WordPress.com, and check my mail. Went to AARP communities, and can't delete anything you read...GRRRRR the site goes down on 17th and new site back on 20th...It has been such a disappointment in so many ways, that AARP communities have caused such a riff for their members. It is hard to be generous to them and be faithful to the site. Got upset with that, so decided to calm down and come over to Jessie and Me. There. That's better. Love and blessings. Sister Trish
Wow, Sis. Zee! You are amazing. Your gift for sharing just what we need, and need to share with someone else who is going through, is a real blessing in so many ways. There is a younger sister who called in the middle of the night with troubles galore...I was waiting for more from the Lord to assure her that she is not going through in vain, and here you are with the fruit. This is great stuff, Sister. Be encouraged and keep on doing just what you were placed here to do. Blessings to you along with lots of love.
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